Good night's rest

Two nights ago I had one of the best things happen to me: I slept well. For some reason, I have been sleeping awful. I wake up multiple times during the night, I toss and I turn and then it's time to wake up in the morning. I came home from work Tuesday and I was exhausted. I knew I had about an hour or so before Ethan came home so I decided to take a quick nap. Quick was the plan. I fell asleep around 5:15pm or so and then I woke up at 8:45pm. I was still so exhausted, but I woke up for a good two hours or so and then I went straight back to bed around 10:45pm. I didn't wake up until 8:15am on Wednesday. It felt fantastic to finally get decent sleep. Nights like that make me so happy inside.

On another note, Rexburg had BEAUTIFUL weather yesterday. It was in the 40's (yes I know that's still cold but for here it's a nice day) and the sun was shining. I was so excited to get outside after work and get a little run in. That was until I walked past the windows in our building and saw the horror outside. Did my eyes deceive me? No, there really were 1-2 inch snowflakes pouring down on us. All I could think was you have to be freaking kidding me! Oh Rexburg, you and your bipolar ways. Here's a picture that doesn't do it justice at all but you get the point.

Visitors

This weekend we are having visitors and I'm so excited. If I can't get out of Rexburg just yet, it'll be nice to have some fresh faces come to us. My best friend Brennan, her husband and her new baby Lainey from this post are coming to visit. Brennan's grandparents are up here as well as well as some other family so they are coming to introduce little Lainey to the rest of the family that haven't met her yet. And although they won't be here long and their time will be split, I'm so excited to see her. If it hasn't been obvious, I don't have many friends here anymore and I long to have those friendships again. It reminds me of all of the amazing times we've had together and keeps me hopeful that we'll always have those cherished memories.

My first trip down to Brennan's home

Cabin fever

I have known for sometime about myself that I enjoy change, that is, change that I initiate. I like to move around and meet new people and see new things. This has resulted in a lifestyle the past four years. After I left home for college I never really moved back, not even on my off-track. My life has looked a little bit like this:

2009:
January-July: Rexburg, ID
July-December: Milwaukee, WI

2010:
January-July: Rexburg, ID
July-October: Payette, ID
October-December: Oro Valley, AZ (basically Tucson)

2011:
January-July: Rexburg, ID
July-December: Mesa, AZ

2012:
January-December: Rexburg, ID (With a month break for wedding plans/traveling)......

I've been here far to long according to what my schedule has been in the past. Don't get me wrong, I really don't mind it here, I'm just starting to feel it's cold fingers holding me tighter and tighter and I feel like there's no getting away! But alas, I know it will come to an end and I will probably be sad to leave here. The people are great and the atmosphere here is special. I just need to get myself out here, just for a little vacation to recharge.

Find your happiness

Last night I was having a conversation with my mom, and just like she usually does, she gave me some great advice. She told me that I need to find what makes me truly happy. I've had the tendency to rely on others for my happiness. I tend to live off the saying, "I'll be happy when..." It's definitely not the best way to look at things, so I am making goals to challenge myself and to find out what really makes me happy. The first thing I have on the list is to make a new blanket. The last time I made one, I felt like I was on top of the world. I'll also try doing other things that challenge me and really make me work for it. I think being out of school, I've realized how much I thrive on learning and being challenged. I'm excited to start thinking of new goals to keep my mind (and attitude) positive!